Love it!

So many things had happened over the weekend and am yet to blog it.
Am just so.... busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy right now with all the paper works for school.
But still, although.......... I just wanna say that... I'm loving it!!!

The Memory Pill

I remember having an entry about some pill that could help ease heartaches and just now, I was browsing through yahoo.com and I came through this link.
Check it out. It's really interesting....

If you experienced a painful or traumatic event, would you want a pill which could lessen the bad memories of what happened? That option might soon be here because of a drug called propranolol.

http://60minutes.yahoo.com/segment/21/memory_drug

The Covenant (Review)

I told you I'm going to watch this. (Hahaha)

As expected, I was glued, totally absorbed by the film. See, I've always been interested in powers, witchcraft and all those super naturals. Watching the movie brought back that interest which I lost right after I entered college. The movie was awesome, not to mention, being eyecandy!

The plot was pretty well made although there was a big question at the end of the movie. I hope that that would mean a sequel. The effects were also superb. I loved that scene when Caleb (on his convertible) collided with a 10 wheeler. It was awesome how the special effects showed the car fly in pieces for 3 seconds and as everything start falling down, it slowly go back into a once piece-no scratch-just like new- Ferrari! Woooaaah! I wish I have some powers like that.

There was this one point in the movie though that was a bit tiring... it was that fight between Caleb and Chase. It was too long and with their pretty looks and well built physique plus their "powers", their fight went from ok to boring. I was expecting more kazzaams and abrakadabras. That was kindda disappointing.

But still.... I recommend the movie. I wish there's a sequel. More magics please! :p

Horoscope

I've never been fascinated by horoscopes, I never believed it, not until I chanced upon reading one that came with Friendster. It was amazingly true or should I say, whatever it was that was written on "my daily horoscope"... I could totally relate to it. So ever since then, I've been reading my horoscope on Friendster everyday.

I think that there's nothing wrong with believing or using it as a guide. I mean, we are our own masters and it's still up to us if we let this astrological readings ran our life.

I guess, it's just awesome... for me that is, to read something that would, in a way, give you a ding! on your head. And... it adds a bit of more excitement to your "decision making".

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Today's Horoscope

The Bottom Line

You are ready for bold action today! It's time to step up and get what you want.

In Detail

You are ready for serious bold action today! It's time to step up and make the grand gestures you know you can make. If you've been beating around the bush with someone you have growing feelings for, today is the day to confess your true feelings. It's now or never. If you have been contemplating a travel adventure, today is the day to book the tickets and commit to going. Time is slipping away; you need to act now to get what you want.

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I Asked Myself... "How Are You?"

if i say that i am ok, i know i am fooling myself. so i'll answer that question with a smile.
sometimes, its better if you just smile at some questions that are thrown to you especially if its requires you to explain your answer.

so i smile, smile... and then smile again. until nobody notices that beneath those smiles I hide what i truly feels.

but how am i really doing now?

well, at times i am really ok, i must admit that. all the stuff going on in school, all the things i have to do for school and all the things i do to keep myself from idleness makes me feel, in some way, better.

honestly, i am slowly getting used to this kind of life. its very different from the life that I once lived. its a lot simpler and healthier. although there are times when i miss that kind of lifestyle, i know that it worth it. i know i've gone far with the good changes that i did to myself and going back to the old ways may put it all in jeopardy.

yes i can still go back. i have the option. but i really don't think i will be going back. well maybe, i will be.. at times, will be seen again on the scene but that will be very minimal. i've seen a different life behind that old life that i had and i must say that its way better.

i am not saying that the old life that i once lived was that bad. i guess i am feeling this way towards it because it caused me so much pain and made me loose so much of myself.

maybe, i have managed to out grow that life and have decided to sail away. in analogy, its like before, i was sailing back and forth along a single river but now i am sailing through the wide open ocean.

i don't exactly know what and where this will lead me but i am optimistic that life would get better with me. yes, pain will be inevitable but will the wisdom that experience has thought me during the last 21 years, i know ill make it through.

i am ok.. but not very ok.. but i am ok.......

Check This Out!

hey guys! i made another blog site...

http://textaddicted.blogspot.com/

collections of text messages
add it to your blogrolls :)

Next Flick

I am enjoying all these movies lately... next..

THE COVENANT

Casino Royale

i don't know what came upon me last night that i suddenly felt the urge of wanting to watch a movie. good thing, my classmates were up to catching a flick like me so right after class, we went straight to greenbelt 3.

all of us hitched a ride on Mickey's classic Mercedez Benz, i think its a 1983 model... we were doing our own acrobatics just to fit inside his "baby". it was some ride. why? because, Mickey driving is somewhat the same as riding a passenger jeepney who aint scared of colliding with anything or anyone (haha!). he's going ala fast and the furious on a classic car. ugh!

so we got there exactly 20 minutes before the showing. it was disappointing though cause we were not seated together. we ended up scattered in the middle row of the movie house in pairs.

Although i've seen some 007 flick before, I've never really been a fan of James Bond so i don't think i am the best critic on this.

the movie was good, to my standards that is. the plot was awesome and i do like the setting.... beach! beach! beach! and a lot of water!!!

just like with the other James Bond movies of course, the cars, the watches, the girls and the clothes were... how do i describe it.. hmm.. eye-popping!!! all of these stuff makes me want to be a 007 agent. (...dream on!) add to that, all those money they bet on a poker game is unbelievable. i mean, hey! you're living the life if you bet 140 million dollars on poker. think of all the shoes and cars i can buy and all the beaches i can go to with all that money. i can even buy my own private beach with that. waaaaaaaa!!!

living the Bond life

(snap back to reality)

the movie was quite long though... more than 2hours. my eyes felt soar after we watching the flick. but its worth it. i like the movie. am giiving it 4.5 out of 5.

watch the trailer



just some comments on the characters:


Daniel Craig
not as damn goodlooking as the other James Bonds but the way he acts out the James Bond persona is awesome... very masculine and like what Jen said, he's oozing with sex appeal.

Eva Green
she looks better without the red lipstick. she's damn gorgeous without any makeup on. waaa!


Sebastian Foucan
if its really him who was doing all those jumping in the movie... he's amazing.

Not the usual Saturday Night

Thera (my sweet glam angel) just SMS-ed me, asking me if I'll be going out. I said "am not sure" because I am really not.

Tonight is not the first Saturday night that I am not sure if I am going out or not. Actually, it's been awhile since I last went out to party and well... parteee. As posted on my recent blog... I am SOBER from everything and yes! I am enjoying every moment of it.

But tonight is not the same as the other Saturday nights. I do not know why but it's very different. There is something in me that tells me to " hey go out! have fun!" but also another half tells me to "it's not yet time for you to party! enjoying sober-rity!"

Am going berserk now. Ugh! I honestly hate it when this happens. The feeling of an itchy feet wanting to take the dance floor and an ear longing for that bass and peaking sound. Ugh!

***pause***

I just got back from a nearby store. Bought a grande Red Horse Beer to booze up my longing system.

It's 11:43pm now on my PC clock. Still early. Party starts at 12 midnight and I still have time. Will I go out or not? That is the question I guess. Better check my wallet to see if I have enough moolah if ever I do satisfy the urge I am feeling right now.

Gawd! I sooo miss all the scene. It's been awhile since I really went out and party like there's no tomorrow!!!

But something on the back of my head tells me something... "Do not go out! It's not yet time?"

But when is the right time... I asked myself.

Shocks. I've never been to this kind of dilemma ever. A dilemma if I'll go party or not.

This is so not me. Not with Marco... Marco the PartyBoi. Sheeesh!!!

Christmas Wish List

Here are my wish list for Christmas.

1. a new laptop
2. a new phone... Motorola MOTOKRZR K1
3. a full body treatment at a spa
4. a new pair of Nike Free 5.0 v.2
5. Addidas Tokyo Trap Jacket
6. Oakley Dart Sunglasses
7. Peace of Mind
8. be on the Dean's List
   

You Lost It.... Bigtime!!!

i checked one of my online accounts awhile ago and noticed something that gave a devilish grin on my face... it also made me ask this...

are you guilty that's why you made those changes?

was i right all along?

it's really funny how at one time you were the one sobbing and then the next thing you knew you're laughing it all out... (hahahaha!!!)

seriosuly, its sooo funny.. sarcastically funny..

now let me just say this..

KARMA has its ways

HeartAche-naic Acid

Falling in love is indeed the best kind of sentiment one would feel and there's no doubt about that. All of us must have felt it even for once in our life.

But falling in love is not all that, it's not all joy and fun. Sometimes falling in love may cause pain, pain that is so unbearable. Sometimes the pain is too much and you feel like dying because of it. This is a sad reality of falling in love and in most cases this happens when the fall was not caught or simply, the love showed was not reciprocated.

I've experienced this not once, not twice, but a lot of times, and every time this happens, I feel like wanting to explode and disappear into thin air because of the unbearable pain it caused. It pinches you deep down inside and makes you feel the need for something that will make the pain go away. Sadly, there is no instant cure for the pain that unrequited love in flicks.

....But what if there is?

What if there is a drug that people can buy at a local drugstore to relieve themselves of so much heartache. A small red pill, in a shape of a heart, that treats heartaches same as how Advil relieves headache. A pill that makes you forget all the pain caused by an ill fated love.

Wouldn't it be simply awesome if there's one?

If in the future, some company starts producing such pill, I am sure, I'll be one of the first people in line to get...not one...not two........but a DOZEN BOXES!!!

No Ordinary Morning

No Ordinary Morning
Chicane



If there was nothing that I could say
Turned your back and you just walked away
Leaves me numb inside I think of you
Together is all I knew

We moved too fast but I had no sign
I would try to turn the hands of time
Then look to you for the reason why
The love we had passed me by

And as the sun would set you would rise
Fall from the sky into paradise
Is there no light in your heart for me?
You've closed your eyes, you no longer see

There were no lies between me and you
You said nothing of what you knew
But there was still something in your eyes
Left me helpless and paralyzed

You could give a million reasons,
change the world and change the times,
Could not give me the secrets of your heart
and of your mind
In the darkness that surrounds me now
there is no peace of mind
Your careless words undo me,
leave the thought of us behind
You could give a million reasons,
change the world and change the times
Could not give me the secrets of your heart
and of your mind
In the darkness that surrounds me now
there is no peace of mind
Your careless words undo me,
leave the thought of us behind

A Resolution

I've been smoking since I was in 3rd Year High and I must admit, for a lot of times, I told myself that I will stop from smoking. Obviously, I am still hooked into the habit but I really want to stop.

Just a few days ago, I got sick. I had fever and was coughing badly. I felt like I was about to vomit my lungs out with every cough. It was awful. Also, add to that, I was feeling something pinching inside my chest. I do not know what this symptoms are but before things gets any worst, I have to do changes on my habits.


Although I am feeling a whole lot better right now, I am still determined to so this this resolution... To stop myself from smoking.

Wish me luck. I know it will be tough. But I was able to do it before, I can still do it again.

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Five Keys for Quitting

Studies have shown that these five steps will help you quit and quit for good. You have the best chances of quitting if you use them together:

1. Get ready.


2. Get support.


3. Learn new skills and behaviors.


4. Get medication and use it correctly.


5. Be prepared for relapse or difficult situations.

1. Get Ready

• Set a quit date.


• Change your environment.


1. Get rid of ALL cigarettes and ashtrays in your home, car, and place of work.


2. Don't let people smoke in your home.
• Review your past attempts to quit. Think about what worked and what did not.


• Once you quit, don't smoke—NOT EVEN A PUFF!

2. Get Support and Encouragement

Studies have shown that you have a better chance of being successful if you have help. You can get support in many ways:

• Tell your family, friends, and coworkers that you are going to quit and want their support. Ask them not to smoke around you or leave cigarettes out.


• Talk to your health care provider (for example, doctor, dentist, nurse, pharmacist, psychologist, or smoking counselor).


• Get individual, group, or telephone counseling. The more counseling you have, the better your chances are of quitting. Programs are given at local hospitals and health centers. Call your local health department for information about programs in your area.

3. Learn New Skills and Behaviors

• Try to distract yourself from urges to smoke. Talk to someone, go for a walk, or get busy with a task.


• When you first try to quit, change your routine. Use a different route to work. Drink tea instead of coffee. Eat breakfast in a different place.


• Do something to reduce your stress. Take a hot bath, exercise, or read a book.


• Plan something enjoyable to do every day.


• Drink a lot of water and other fluids.

4. Get Medication and Use It Correctly

Medications can help you stop smoking and lessen the urge to smoke.

• The U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) has approved five medications to help you quit smoking:


1. Bupropion SR—Available by prescription.


2. Nicotine gum—Available over-the-counter.


3. Nicotine inhaler—Available by prescription.


4. Nicotine nasal spray—Available by prescription.


5. Nicotine patch—Available by prescription and over-the-counter.
• Ask your health care provider for advice and carefully read the information on the package.


• All of these medications will more or less double your chances of quitting and quitting for good.


• Everyone who is trying to quit may benefit from using a medication. If you are pregnant or trying to become pregnant, nursing, under age 18, smoking fewer than 10 cigarettes per day, or have a medical condition, talk to your doctor or other health care provider before taking medications.

5. Be Prepared for Relapse or Difficult Situations

Most relapses occur within the first 3 months after quitting. Don't be discouraged if you start smoking again. Remember, most people try several times before they finally quit. Here are some difficult situations to watch for:

• Alcohol. Avoid drinking alcohol. Drinking lowers your chances of success.
• Other smokers. Being around smoking can make you want to smoke.
• Weight gain. Many smokers will gain weight when they quit, usually less than 10 pounds. Eat a healthy diet and stay active. Don't let weight gain distract you from your main goal—quitting smoking. Some quit-smoking medications may help delay weight gain.
• Bad mood or depression. There are a lot of ways to improve your mood other than smoking.

source: http://www.surgeongeneral.gov/tobacco/consquits.htm

Hate (a poem)

HATE

ever since i was i child
i have hated you
and with each day that pass by
i am hating you more

you've always caused pain
not only to me but to all of us
to us who are part of your own flesh and blood

blood they say is thicker than water
but why are you doing this
instead of giving us comfort and love
you give us hardships and aches

i curse you i hate you
screw you damn you
you are the source of our grievances
how i so wait for death to come upon you

Changes

When you’ve gone so used to a certain kind of lifestyle and all of a sudden you had to make a downright turning of tables, you will be shock at the many things that you get to know as you try to make those turns for a new life.

CHANGE is truly inevitable. All of us undergo a certain kind of change. Some, we don’t even give attention to. Often times though, there are these types of changes which do require so much attention, even up to the point wherein we make drastic measures just to cope with it. These changes often cause collapse of the YOU that you know (at my point of view that is). Am I talking nonsense? Forgive me if I am. It’s just that, I am going through this stuff and turning neurotic because of this. Tough is an understatement to describe it and am going berserk with the so many things that had been troubling me.

Well, I really thank everybody who’s anchoring me to sanity. If not for them, I don't think I would still be here... blogging.

It’s true..

"Life is beautiful but nobody actually said it would be EASY!"

SOBER.. and LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT

need I say more?

Died

In an article I read this morning. There was this question that caught my attention...
it asked...

"Are you ready to die?"

so i asked myself.

"am i ready to die?"

i smiled cause i realiz that.. I'VE DIED A COUPLE OF TIMES...