Sa Bubungan

Feeling a bit lonely today, so I decided to pack my laptop and go somewhere where I can feel the loneliness. I was looking for a place where it would be quiet, a place where I can just enjoy myself alone. So I decided to stay in our house’s roof. Yeah, as in “bubungan”. It may sound funny but I felt that that’s the best place to stay.

So there I did go with my laptop plus a bottle of beer, 10 sticks of cigarette and a bottle of OFF lotion (to keep the mosquito away).

I sat there for as long as I felt I was still ok. I gazed up in the sky and saw the stars twinkling. I noticed that its full moon. It got me a bit scared cause its passed midnight sand I know these stories about creatures lurking around when it’s full moon. Even though, I still stayed there.

I felt some sort of bliss while I was sitting on the roof of our house. It was tranquil and peaceful. Of course, I didn’t see anybody there but I feel that someone might have seen me just sitting there and doing my own stuff of emotional drama. I didn’t cry though, but as I was sitting all alone with the music of Nina and Kyla playing on my laptop, I felt a surge of mixed emotions which I guess have triggered memories of my past to starting rushing in my mind.

After that moment on the roof, I realized that there is nothing wrong with really being alone sometimes. It gives us time to think. It gives you time to reflect on things you don’t get to think about when you’re doing a lot of things. The feeling is very peaceful. And after that night, I finally experienced it and have realized it…. that the only way that you can say that you’re really happy is when with just with by yourself alone, you are happy. I use to not believe that but now I do.

Fore sure that wont be the first time that I’ll be doing that… staying at our roof and just feel the wind blow and watch the stars twinkle while having ambient or sentimental music on the background.